Writing

Lost Myself

Poetry

Emotional day. Just started writing and this is what came out...



How the fuck am I supposed to be me
If I don't even know who I used to be
Memories blocked so long ago
Cuz I'm ashamed of what I'll never see

Truly beauty, it flees from me
I'll never see what I'm supposed to be
The future is fucked, It'll never begin
I'm still dealing with today, it'll never end

How am I supposed to be me
When I never even liked who I used to be
What am I now, who will I be?
Does it even matter anymore?

I've lost sight of a path that was never here
Lost all motivation to move, to breathe
Let the lies wash over, drown me out
Lose myself to flood, won't hear myself now

I can't begin to see
What I'm supposed to be
The future is clouded
By the tears I've tried to dry

Should I be what they say
And stand with the crowd
Or should I find myself now
And say fuck them, and stand alone

I thought I would have accomplished something by now
Made a name for myself, or forged my own path
But I forgot who I am, repressed who I used to be
And all it did was torture me...

I'm trying to find my way back to her
Back to the girl I used to know
Back to the me I used to be
But it's hard when everyone refuses to see
That this is who I want to be

So fuck them all
I guess I'll stand alone
Continue to cry myself to sleep
So I can raise my head above the sheep
As they flock to bow down
And lose themselves in the crowd...

 

Sleep Now My Heart

Poetry

A character inspired song.

 

Sleep Now My Heart

Sleep... Now...
My... Love...
Sleep... Now...
My... Heart...

Sleep now my love
Rest your head in my arms
Sleep now my heart
When you awake I will return

Look now with your new eyes
See the world anew
When you close your eyes at night
Remember I'm with you

Sleep now my love
Rest a while my heart
And know that meeting you
Has torn my world apart

Lovers learn
As memories burn
The ashes leave no lies
Feelings yearn
And beg return
Hidden in your eyes

I'm sorry that I took so long
But waiting made you better

So look now
With your new eyes
And tell me what you see
Lay your head upon my arms
And sleep again with me

Sleep now my love
Sleep now my heart
(My heart that burns for you...)
So sleep now my love
Rest again, my heart

 

Pieces

Poetry

Something I randomly started writing tonight. Another work in progress piece...

 

 

   

Choking on Reality

Poetry

Had to write something after today's bullshit... It's a start. This will be a "work in progress" one, cuz I don't really feel it's truly finished. Either way, I feel a tiny bit better now...

 

Shadows Within

Poetry

Yet another SU character inspired song. This one is Jacob's song...

It'll probably get revised at some point, but it's a good start.

 

   

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